So Mother's Day just passed. This is the first year I'm a mom... and boy... what a journey it has been so far!
So is it really too unrealistic to think that I can be this "super woman" who can:
- only get around 1 to 3 hrs of uninterrupted sleep at a time for a total of 5 to 6 hrs at night since... uh... early November (so been 7 months of complete sleep deprivation!)
- meet all the basic needs of the baby (feed, clean diaper, clean clothes, etc)
- be able to stimulate baby properly especially now as she is learning new things so fast and I don't want to cripple her
- keep the house somewhat clean (seriously considering hiring the maid services)
- grocery shop for food, household items etc before we run completely out...
- prepare healthy meals but only 3 to 5 per week (since my mom usually prepares the other 2 and there are usually leftovers)
- get to work on time
- look somewhat decent and awake at work
- lose the pregnancy weight so I can fit back to my old clothes
- (have time to shop for new clothes)
- build up a new practice from scratch my first year out of residency training
- do "no harm" at work!
- keep up with some medical literature so as not to fall completely out of the loop on things
- keep up with balancing finances and sorting mail
- oh.. and what exactly are my roles as a wife? i've completely forgotten...
- and on top of all of it... have time for daily devotions so God can come first??
Maybe it's because I'm not trying hard enough to do the last bullet point so everything else is a mess! I'm sure I've missed some more points that are in my mental "to do" checklist...
Oh yes... I did forget to mention that I was also hoping to do the following during extra "free time" that I find:
- complete my baby's scrapbook
- make some DVD videos that incorporate her pictures and clips so can start a collection
- re-make our old wedding video into a DVD (since the copy we have now is on 5 VCD discs)
SIGH! I guess it's no suprise that I haven't gotten to any of these last goals yet...
Well... I just had to spew. I've always had high expectations since I can remember and it's not easy to let them go. Letting go of expectations feels like "failure" to me. Oh well. It is what it is...
2 comments:
yikes, you sound swamped.
i vote for delegating -- hire that cleaning service... :-) and maybe you can get groceries and household stuff online (amazon actually has this subscribe&save where you can automatically buy certain household/grocery items periodically, and they give you 15% off).
nobody says you have to do everything!
hm. didnot know about that amazon deal... will certainly look into it. thanx!
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